I have
learnt that Real Love is deep and intense. It goes beyond just kisses and hugs.
It goes beyond even the pleasure of sex. Loving someone is like becoming a
firefighter. You know the fire may burn you in the process but you are ready to
try, having faith that the love will serve as the fireproof, pretending it doesn’t
hurt. Knowing that the fire will come but when it comes, the love will be able
to stand it.
When you know the meaning of true love, it becomes delinquent to make up your mind. I now fear I may not be able to show it to anyone the way it is, no matter how hard I try.
I am left in the dilemma of having to exchange the fear I feel for faith. Even when I get to believe I can love someone sincerely, truly and wholeheartedly. For you, I still fear I may not love you enough. I fear I may not be able to give you that smile you exude every time I see you in the world of my dream. You know that kind of love that happens in Hollywood love stories? In that world I see a happy woman full of life, smiling, fulfilled. I see a mother of great children. Living her dream to the peak.
I write with tears in my heart. That I have to at point stop being your friend. Miss Viona, I don't want to fall in love with you deeper than this. If I do, I may be doomed. It is bad to truly love someone but not enough, but it is worse if that someone don't love you back. Those, I now want to avoid. So am so sorry I have to at this point stop troubling you with my love stories. Cos I can’t see you believing in them.
Don't worry about me. I will wait, yes, that is what I just decided to do. I will wait for that someone who will believe in me and in what I say. To whom my love pieces are golden and heartwarming.
For that someone who the sound of my name brings peace even if her life is in a war. That someone who is ready to listen to me even in her sleep.
That someone who is ready to be a friend. That someone who is not ready to know if my father is the Governor of my state or the Mayor of my city. The one who wouldn’t care if my father has no name among the men with material substance before she resolve to take a ride with me.
When you know the meaning of true love, it becomes delinquent to make up your mind. I now fear I may not be able to show it to anyone the way it is, no matter how hard I try.
I am left in the dilemma of having to exchange the fear I feel for faith. Even when I get to believe I can love someone sincerely, truly and wholeheartedly. For you, I still fear I may not love you enough. I fear I may not be able to give you that smile you exude every time I see you in the world of my dream. You know that kind of love that happens in Hollywood love stories? In that world I see a happy woman full of life, smiling, fulfilled. I see a mother of great children. Living her dream to the peak.
I write with tears in my heart. That I have to at point stop being your friend. Miss Viona, I don't want to fall in love with you deeper than this. If I do, I may be doomed. It is bad to truly love someone but not enough, but it is worse if that someone don't love you back. Those, I now want to avoid. So am so sorry I have to at this point stop troubling you with my love stories. Cos I can’t see you believing in them.
Don't worry about me. I will wait, yes, that is what I just decided to do. I will wait for that someone who will believe in me and in what I say. To whom my love pieces are golden and heartwarming.
For that someone who the sound of my name brings peace even if her life is in a war. That someone who is ready to listen to me even in her sleep.
That someone who is ready to be a friend. That someone who is not ready to know if my father is the Governor of my state or the Mayor of my city. The one who wouldn’t care if my father has no name among the men with material substance before she resolve to take a ride with me.
That
someone who knows I can’t afford an iPhone or a Gucci but values her smile
above those cos she knows I can make her smile and be the voice that makes her
laugh. Who can summon the faith to dare believe that no matter how oblivious
the prospects may seem now. She can have a great life being just my friend.
That friend for who I can show the tangible, non-selfish, non-exhausting love of God. Friend who trusts me to help her change her sanitary pads when she feels too weak and still knows I can wait.
One who will listen to me share my life dreams and laugh about how outrageous and ridiculous they are and yet will believe in them with me.
If you can't love someone when u don't really know him or her. It is hard to love them if you knew them well enough. Cos we are all full of past errors and blemished with faults.
To everyone whose love is being misunderstood, not returned, or taken for granted, this is for you. I hope you find the courage to solve the puzzle or walk away. I write to the ladies who still believe in Prince Charming, who want to be swept off their feet. If you are a Nigerian, you can as well join the APC. We have a lot of brothers brandishing brooms there.
If being good enough is measured by your criteria of Mr Nice Rich Guy alone, you will fail to see the uniqueness in anyone. Birds don't swim and fishes can't fly. It takes a whole but simple life to be happy. Most times the Prince you seek will not have the time to understand the reason why you need to be happy. He is used to be treated and not treat someone else.
True happiness most times I have discovered is found in simple places with simple people. It is better to be with a simple nobody and be treated a Queen than to be in a palace of a prince and slave away. Why should I use an iPhone and cannot call anyone with it?
I wish you could understand who the simple guy wants to be to you.
He does not want to be that kind of man who will just visit your life when in need of company or pleasure if ever dreams come true. Though he find§ it hard to remove it from his heart that he wants to be more than just a friend to you, if ever u give him the opportunity to really say it.
That friend for who I can show the tangible, non-selfish, non-exhausting love of God. Friend who trusts me to help her change her sanitary pads when she feels too weak and still knows I can wait.
One who will listen to me share my life dreams and laugh about how outrageous and ridiculous they are and yet will believe in them with me.
If you can't love someone when u don't really know him or her. It is hard to love them if you knew them well enough. Cos we are all full of past errors and blemished with faults.
To everyone whose love is being misunderstood, not returned, or taken for granted, this is for you. I hope you find the courage to solve the puzzle or walk away. I write to the ladies who still believe in Prince Charming, who want to be swept off their feet. If you are a Nigerian, you can as well join the APC. We have a lot of brothers brandishing brooms there.
If being good enough is measured by your criteria of Mr Nice Rich Guy alone, you will fail to see the uniqueness in anyone. Birds don't swim and fishes can't fly. It takes a whole but simple life to be happy. Most times the Prince you seek will not have the time to understand the reason why you need to be happy. He is used to be treated and not treat someone else.
True happiness most times I have discovered is found in simple places with simple people. It is better to be with a simple nobody and be treated a Queen than to be in a palace of a prince and slave away. Why should I use an iPhone and cannot call anyone with it?
I wish you could understand who the simple guy wants to be to you.
He does not want to be that kind of man who will just visit your life when in need of company or pleasure if ever dreams come true. Though he find§ it hard to remove it from his heart that he wants to be more than just a friend to you, if ever u give him the opportunity to really say it.
Just thinking aloud
Adanu Moses
8/8/2015
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